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Father, Why Do I Feel This Way?

I wrote this in my journal one day over four years ago….
“Lord, I have felt such anxiety, such depression. I knew you were there but I couldn’t touch you. You were reaching out to me…but it was like I was wandering in a desert. I was so thirsty, but I could not drink. The water was right there. I then began to be consumed with guilt and condemnation about how I had failed as a believer, and that was not from you. I was so consumed that I couldn’t even reach my hand up high enough to touch your lips for even a taste of water. And yet, you never left me. You stayed and reached down and pulled me up…little by little. But I had to be able to see you, to know that you were not a mirage. My reality had to become clearer…..and the increase in medication allowed me to see you again. You never left, but my perception, my vision did. I cannot put into words the pain I felt, I don’t understand it. Some say it was a spiritual attack, and I do know that there are battles…but it was more than that…Now my life circumstances have changed and I can see you again. You are no longer a mirage. You are my reality, my constant companion. I am “me” again…the “me” you designed me to be.

The fog slithers up behind you and engulfs you before you realize it…..

……..Depression and Anxiety….. Continue reading

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DELETE

 

DELETE, DELETE, DELETE.  I was checking email and if I was done reading, or simply did not want to read the email…I hit that precious little button.  Sometimes I could do it in the group setting…check, delete.  Such power. And I will admit I always have tons of emails. Continue reading


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TROUBLES

 

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TROUBLES

Everyone has them…no one is exempt.

Jesus said, “Therefore do no worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”  Matthew 6:34 and also in John 16:33  “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace.  In this world you will have trouble.  But take heart, I have overcome the world.” Continue reading