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Encouragement for Today~In today's world of swirling circumstances, we need to be reminded of how much we are loved by God.


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Connect the Dots

I have rewritten this post several times, and prayed about even sharing it. But I know that writing and talking have always been therapeutic for me, even since a young child. 

I was reminded that sometimes the very things we go through can actually help others. I have seen it all my life.  Things happen, so we can choose to be “BItter” or “Better”.

Which leads me to the game of “Dots.”

Remember that game?  Make dots on a paper and then take turns with others to see who can “connect the dots” and make the first square?  Your initial claims that box as your own!  Who ever has the most boxes once all the dots are connected wins the game!polka-dots-875047_1280

Connecting dots.  I have been doing some of that lately with my health. 

Over seven year and I have a couple of boxes almost connected. 

I have been praying for answers, in particular the last eight months as the pain, spasms, weakness, and swelling, etc.. have all gotten worse.  I just knew something was not right.  But I also knew that these “old earth suits” wear out.

Over six years ago I was so stressed that I quit teaching, lost a third of my hair, was diagnosed with alopecia from a biopsy, had a basal cell carcinoma removed, numbness and swelling in my feet, ankles and right hand. My back and neck hurt all the time. Then chronic pain started with my feet and went up my legs with spasms and Charlie Horses. And a hip replacement four years ago did not relieve that pain. I could go on…as could many of you.

This “earth suit” was really in need of repair. LOL

I have really made an effort to take care of myself with natural supplements, good eating, exercise.  But I really felt I hit a brick wall and no one could give me answers.  Four doctors later, five minutes into the exam…the rheumatologist/neurologist was talking about a “central nervous system disorder.”

Several questions and procedures later, my husband and I left with a lot of test orders and a lot of questions that hopefully will be answered the end of this month.  The “dots” were connecting, the game was just not over.

I just spent the week with our 15 month old granddaughter, who was diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy in Sept.  She is my inspiration. She is strong, she is determined.  

I will fight this chronic pain with all I have.  I will learn as much as I can about self care. And I will trust my Abba.

Everyone has something. I know people are dealing with so many issues.  Pain is subjective and no one really understands what the other person is going through, we just pray that the Father will give us the compassion we need for each other.

My Jesus gets it. He has proven Himself faithful over and over in my life.

He gets all our pain, our heartache, our hurt.

Hang on to that….and hopefully you can connect the dots too.

Psalm 119:90 “Your faithfulness endures to all generations; you have established the earth, and it stands fast.”

~Be Encouraged Today

Tammy


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Fierce Love and CP

This was a post my daughter in love made on social media.  I am sharing it with permission.

I pray it inspires you as much as it has inspired me.  Our granddaughter is a treasure that brings joy and happiness to everyone she meets!

 

September 13, 2019 was a life changing day for our little family.

I’ve spent 18 days processing this. 18 days of being sad, angry, hopeful, bitter, grateful.. sad again.. angry again. I’m normally not one to overshare personal information (besides pictures of my ridiculously cute child) but I feel social media is the best outlet to deliver this to friends and family. I don’t have the heart to talk about it over and over on the phone or in person.

We’ve spent the last few months addressing some health concerns with Norah, mostly developmental delays and some tight reflexes in her feet and ankles. We met with a few Doctors, Specialists, and Physical Therapists which eventually resulted in a referral to a Pediatric Neurologist.

I went into this appointment optimistic. Yes, I had spent the last several weeks with my friend, Dr. Google, but I knew there was nothing seriously wrong with my perfect babygirl.

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Cerebral Palsy

Those 2 words with the formal diagnosis hit me like a train. What? How? Why? She’s 13 months old.. I had a perfect pregnancy, she’s only been sick with a cold once in her whole life. She’s social, happy, funny, snuggly, perfect. I think I blacked out from pure shock. After those 2 words were said, Taylor jumped to my side immediately. He was my support and my voice and I don’t think I’ve ever loved him more than in that moment.

We left the appointment with a handful of referrals, next steps, an MRI appointment, etc. The first few days after the diagnosis are a pure blur of emotions.

So why am I sharing this on Facebook? I’ve spent the last 18 days processing how I want our daughter’s future to look.

 As much as I want to.. I can’t keep her in a bubble and hide this forever. I am not ashamed of Cerebral Palsy. I don’t want sympathy looks and concerns. I don’t want my friends to be scared to share milestone achievements about their own adorable babies in fear of hurting my feelings. I don’t want this to be the only topic of conversation when we see friends and family. I don’t want to spend hours on my phone texting or talking about this. 

I don’t want comments like “oh she will be okay!” This isn’t okay.. but she is strong, she is a fighter, she is the happiest baby in the world, and above all she is fiercely loved.

Of course the milestone achievements are important. Yes I want to see my daughter walk. I am dying to hear her say “mama”.. but her CP diagnosis has made me realize that above all, I want to raise my daughter to be kind and to show compassion, just like our friends, family and community have shown us the last 18 days. 

I want her to use this diagnosis as a platform to inspire others. I want her to know that she is strong and can achieve anything she puts her mind to. I want her to know that everyone is fighting some kind of an internal battle and that her beautiful smile and showing kindness can make anyone’s day just a little brighter.

So please don’t feel sorry for us but instead celebrate our sweet girls accomplishments with us. We refuse to let Cerebral Palsy define Norah and to define us as a family. I refuse to let it define me as a mother. 

We don’t know exactly what the future will look like.. but what we do know is that this doesn’t define who Norah is and that CP is just a part of her journey and a chapter in her story. I cannot wait to watch her tackle this and show the world just how amazing she is.

And now that I have this very emotional and very dreaded post behind me, onto bigger and better positive updates about Norah’s achievements. I cannot wait to share her story with everyone we love, everyone who loves us, and everyone who loves our perfect daughter.DSC01770

~Be Encouraged Today~

Tammy


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Encouraging Fiction

The reading binge continues…I have an insatiable appetite right now for encouraging fiction, and Karen Kingsbury is meeting that need.

I completed the series, with the first, Angels Walking- A Novel .  A beautiful novel with Tyler, a baseball player, Sami, a one time girlfriend and Virginia, a precious resident at an assisted living facility.

Karen weaves the story of love, redemption, grace and forgiveness in such an beautiful way.  We are always entertaining “angels unaware”, and this author gives us a glimpse of what that looks like.

The second book of the trilogy, Chasing Sunsets, Karen Kingsbury continues with the expansion of the story of Marcus and Mary Catherine.  Both of these characters are friends of Tyler and Sami.  The angels are always on mission, and this book continues to show us the lives that the angels are needing to protect.

The third and final book, Brush of Wings, Karen continues to share the stories of each of the couples.  We also meet a young woman, Lexy, who is involved in a gang lifestyle that threatens her life, and the future that the Father has the angels protecting.

I love the way Karen allows us to peek behind the curtain at the angels. Ember, Beck, Jag and Aspyn, the angels throughout the series and in this third book,

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work together on this very important mission.

Karen always makes books easy to read and hard to put down.  These three were no exceptions.

I just finished Oceans Apart…paperback   or Oceans Apart- Kindle  so I will talk about it next time.

Until then, pardon me while I start another KK book!

~Be Encouraged Today

Tammy