Last week I was so excited about my birthday. And while I am still very thankful, God has been showing me some things about myself. Sometimes learning about who you are and who you think you are can be very humbling to say the least. We are never too old to learn!
I have a bad hip, two actually. It needs replaced, as will the other one some day. As the doctor said, “I treat patients, not x-rays.” So, I am holding out as long as I can. I can power through it! Well at least that has been my slogan the last couple of months.
And quite frankly, riding my stationary bike 3-5 miles a day, doing my exercises and using my essential oils has been great. I feel like I have done well……with a few exceptions.
And much to my chagrin, these exceptions are my own fault. I think I can still do the things I did when I was 25 years old. Well, turns out….I really cannot. And just because my brain thinks it can doesn’t mean that this body will cooperate. For example, if I sit for an hour, I need to take a five minute break within that hour. If I am on my feet for an hour, I need to sit for five minutes.
Nope. I figured I could power through the pain. “I am woman, hear me roar.”
I have been very wrong and paid for it dearly. A number of times. The last “payment” has been rather lengthy and painful. In fact, several days later this “flare up” is still showing itself!
So bottom line is this…I have to admit my limitations and work within them. I have to quit fooling myself. I have a bad hip. In fact I have two bad hips….one is just currently worse than the other! This old earth suit has flaws.
The beautiful thing is that when I admit my limits, Christ extends His grace without limits. His grace is truly limitless. When I mess up, He is there to pick me up and help me through my choices. It doesn’t matter if those choices are physical, emotional or spiritual.
Oh~ I will suffer the consequences most likely, but He won’t wander off. He was with me when the femoral artery in my leg was pulsating and the femoral and sciatic nerves were screaming “you sat for how many hours straight today”? He used my sweet husband to see me through those excruciating hours.
He won’t wander off…He won’t leave nor forsake me.
Psalm 91:1-2 “He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, ‘My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.’”
But I have to make some tough choices, and I will let some people down by admitting I cannot do what I thought I could do…but Christ won’t wander off then either. He will be right by my side…giving me the strength and grace to say what I need to say.
And He will remind me to do what I have been told to do and realize my limitations!
Now excuse me….I have to get up and go take a short walk!
IN CHRIST ALONE~
*NIV Bible, personal graphics