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~The Ocean Series~ Cast Your Line

I admit that I am not a person who has ever enjoyed fishing.  Walking along the beach many times, there seems to always be a fisherman or two casting their lines.  I watch them as they throw a long piece of filament out hoping to catch the “big one”. 

As I have traveled back from this road of panic, the Father has reminded me over and over how He has never left my side and never will. It has been quite humbling to open up about it and risk judgment. But in fact, I am to “cast my cares/anxieties on HIM, for He is watching over me carefully.”

So I can throw those awful things out far into the waters and Christ will receive them, He will carry them. He is for me, not against me.  

And that my friends is good news.  So now I stay close to shore or even on the walkway, but who knows, maybe someday I will be able to actually cast that line into the sea!

~Be Encouraged Today~


~The Ocean Series~ Clouds and Crashing Waves

The clouds roll in slowly and are overhead before you even know the darkness has descended.  You can feel the weight of the wave as it crashes upon you at the shore.  It is about to take you under.

Depression and Anxiety are very real.  This weekend I experienced one of the most frightening times of my life.  I had a full-blown panic attack.  I actually thought I was having a heart attack, due to my parents’ heart histories. Panic attacks can mimic the symptoms of heart attacks, so for the first time in 30 years, I visited the ER.

Due to a change from a name brand to its generic substitution, the chemical imbalance was not being controlled. I have been a mess.  Maybe my honesty will help someone.

 Even though I was not thinking clearly, I could feel the presence of my Savior.  He never left my side in my fear.  He gave me an inner peace that was present even as my ability to speak clearly was not.  I was going to be okay in one way or another.

God loves me, chemical imbalances and all.  And He loves you too! I will be back to my regular self soon. Well “regular” may be subjective..lol! 

Friend, don’t be afraid to ask for help. When I am in this state of incorrect medication, I get very anxious, forgetful and apologize for everything.  AND I feel like I have failed everyone, including God.  But that is not true!  It is a lie as is the thought that I am crazy! 

Get the help you need.  And don’t let those clouds overwhelm you…for the sun will break through and you will be able to dip your toes safely in the water without the fear of a crashing wave soon.

~Be Encouraged Today~