I feel like a cartoon character when I am angry.
I wear my feelings on my shirtsleeve as they say. In reality, I cannot hide my feelings from anyone. Oh how I wish I could, but I cannot. That is why I make a terrible liar, you can see it all over my face.
So, I might actually look like a cartoon character when I am angry. But no one but my husband will know….
And right now I am angry. Very angry. Extremely angry. So I have been home all day. And I will be home tomorrow. I cannot risk showing my feelings to anyone. Why? Because it won’t do anyone any good at all. Especially the one(s) I am so angry with…..:) And I am angry that someone I care for has been hurt….the worse kind of angry!
I cannot say that I have spiritually come to that decision in an “easy” way. It has taken years, and years of practice. I used to be the one out there yelling at anyone that made me mad. “Don’t mess with me” seemed to be the sign that displayed itself around my neck.
But as I age…I have realized that my anger will not help. There are a lot of scripture on anger, I have shared two..one Old Testament, one New Testament.
“Cease from anger, and forsake wrath; Do not fret—it only causes harm.” Psalms 37:8
“Be angry, and do not sin”: do not let the sun go down on your wrath, nor give place to the devil. Ephesians 4:26-27
I think that when there is injustice, deception, untruths, etc…the anger is justified. No, it isn’t. The anger I held against my earthly dad for years did nothing to him…it only hurt me and my relationship with God. I had to give that anger away.
So, again…I have to give it up, turn it over, let it go…you know, all those spiritual things I am suppose to do with it. And praise God, He will give me the strength to do so.
He also will give me the strength to pray for the one(s) who angered me. How do I know this? Because only GOD could utter the words through my mouth, my flesh is weak.
“But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you” Matthew 5:44
So I won’t hold my breath and turn red, nor will I hurt anyone….but I might not get out of the house for days!! Hope the pantry is stocked!
IN CHRIST ALONE
*google image, NIV Bible*