If the Father can find an ear cuff for me on a parking lot, why can’t HE totally heal my Valley Fever? I wrote about it a wonderful “God Wink” yesterday.
Yes, I asked him that question today. My Abba Father can handle my honest questions, He knows my heart anyway. I had another CT scan on my lungs. My left lung still has lesions, nodules and a cavity. No change. My blood work still shows an “active” case.
So after a bit of crying and wondering, I was reminded of the Apostle Paul and the thorn in his side that he really did not want either. My thorn is a fungus. And everyone has something!
I choose to be thankful, that in this fallen world…my Father understands my frustration and weeps with me. I choose to trust Him.
Why? Because I am feeling so much better, can do things I wondered if I would ever be able to do again. I have never been as sick as I was those eleven days in the hospital and months at home. And I am stable. Even after Covid in August, no additional damage. I am so grateful.
God will never leave nor forsake me. He will never leave nor forsake you. When we don’t “feel” like He is listening, He is listening. My faith is not in my ability to believe I can be healed here on earth, but HIS ability to sustain me no matter what comes my way.
God proves to me over and over that HE is with me. It isn’t always the circumstances that I want, but this world is not what He wanted it to be either… and yet, HE provided Jesus for us…for our eternal life. For our HOPE in our todays.
Jesus is with you in your todays, in your disappointments, in your pain, in your sorrow. He was with you yesterday, and He will be with you in your tomorrows.
The trust has nothing to do with our ability, but with His grace.
Psalm 46:1-3 “God is our shelter and strength,
always ready to help in times of trouble.
So we will not be afraid, even if the earth is shaken
and mountains fall into the ocean depths;
even if the seas roar and rage,
and the hills are shaken by the violence.”
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Your fs powerful TJ and my heart hurts for your pain. Living in Arizona for 9 years, I knew many who developed this debilitating illness. I’m sure you’re doing all you can to fend it off (by nutrition, exercise, drawing close to the LORD as you have) but my first thought also was that you must feel like Paul when he heard, “my grace is sufficient for you.” A warm hug across the miles to you sweet friend, ❤
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Ah, thank you. Like I said, everyone has something. But yes, His grace in sufficient for me. I know so many people who are going through so much. I am doing so much better. I am no longer on anti-fungals and have been following the nutritional plan recommended by the Valley Fever Support group. It has helped tremendously. I have a wonderful exercise plan as well. Thanks for your prayers and your hugs!
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