The clouds roll in slowly and are overhead before you even know the darkness has descended. You can feel the weight of the wave as it crashes upon you at the shore. It is about to take you under.
Depression and Anxiety are very real. This weekend I experienced one of the most frightening times of my life. I had a full-blown panic attack. I actually thought I was having a heart attack, due to my parents’ heart histories. Panic attacks can mimic the symptoms of heart attacks, so for the first time in 30 years, I visited the ER.
Due to a change from a name brand to its generic substitution, the chemical imbalance was not being controlled. I have been a mess. Maybe my honesty will help someone.
Even though I was not thinking clearly, I could feel the presence of my Savior. He never left my side in my fear. He gave me an inner peace that was present even as my ability to speak clearly was not. I was going to be okay in one way or another.
God loves me, chemical imbalances and all. And He loves you too! I will be back to my regular self soon. Well “regular” may be subjective..lol!
Friend, don’t be afraid to ask for help. When I am in this state of incorrect medication, I get very anxious, forgetful and apologize for everything. AND I feel like I have failed everyone, including God. But that is not true! It is a lie as is the thought that I am crazy!
Get the help you need. And don’t let those clouds overwhelm you…for the sun will break through and you will be able to dip your toes safely in the water without the fear of a crashing wave soon.
~Be Encouraged Today~
Tammy
Encouragement for Today 
Oh Tammy, I know where you are coming from here. It takes a great deal of discipline and Faith to know that God has you in His Hand., regardless of our ups and downs, especially deep depression and helplessness. Just remember you are an extremely strong woman and very loved! Blessings back my friend, ❤
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Thank you for the encouragment Ellie. It was a very difficult, troubling weekend…but slowly getting back to the old me!!
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” Get the help you need. And don’t let those clouds overwhelm you…for the sun will break through and you will be able to dip your toes safely in the water without the fear of a crashing wave soon.” So true .
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Thank you for your encouragement. The crashing waves have slowed.
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Thank you credit to The Ocean Series
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This is a very courageous post. ❤ You are a very courageous and beautiful woman.
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You are so kind Carol. I will admit being so transparent has been a bit daunting, and I have received some criticism…but that is okay. I am so much better now that I have the correct medication and hope that my honesty will help others. Thank you for the encouragement.
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Just seeing this post now…but can’t believe someone would criticize your for transparency. I’ve had a panic attack that sent me reeling and it had nothing to do with chemical imbalance or meds. Until someone rushes to the ER with a palpitating heart, they can’t throw stones.
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People seem to lash out when they are insecure or out of fear. Or our transparency reveals their secret pain? Thanks for commenting my friend.
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